Bobby Belliveau

The man that made my life a living hell for over 9 months.  His name is Bobby Gene Belliveau, I don’t know why it happened? I blamed myself at first for all of it but than I came to realize that he’s phsyco , immature, criminal, abuser, and much more…. I can remember every night, every time he ever hit me or we fought! It was normal at first simple stupid relationship fights the ones where you just say sorry and it was all settled but than it got worse it was bout 3 months into dating when he first hit me. The first time he ever hit me I got a black eye two days before school started. Try having that happen when everyone asks you what happened. Yea it sucked! I lied to everyone about it because I was unsure on how to feel or what to do?… My past wasn’t the greatest and its not like I truly had anyone to go to …   Anywho, from their it only got worse every day or so. We never had any good moments because he was an asshole who would bring up my own past even though he wasn’t in it at that time and just couldn’t drop my ex or the fun I had in my past. I remember 2008-2009 new years a few days before. he wanted me to go to NY with him for sum stupid reason… Well he drove back to Vt from Ny to pick me up so that we could spent new years eve and new years together to see the ball drop.. Well being I had to drive I kept having a feeling that sum thing wasn’t right when we hit NH I said I didn’t want to go I wanted to turn around. He got all angry punching the car, punching himself in the face being on anything possible, yelling at me at the top of his lungs. all while I was driving…(stupid) I can’t remember what town it was but it started with a B either way I got off that exit and pulled into a gas station b.c he wanted to get gas as I sat their and told him I was going to call my mom I called my friend (my bf now) but their was no answer….  After getting gas I started to pull to the on ramp back to my house be he didn’t like that and yelled at me, hit me and pulled the steering wheel away. Yelling just go with me! fuck and much more.. So I pulled a U back next to the gas station in a BK parking lot or McDonald’s one either way . I yelled at  him to get out of the car so I can make a phone call he was worried that I was going to call the cops because of what he had just done! I said i’m not going to call the cops I said I was going to call my mother…. He was stupid and asked Y I think I had my reasons. He wouldn’t get out of the car and just fought with me while I was crying my eyes out , while in pain from being hit in the face by his fist! I yelled for him to get out of the park slamming the horn on many many times before he finially got out . His brother Donald called while I was yet again trying to call my friend. I left a message saying where the fuck are you give me a call back while I was crying. Donald ended up calling me and I told him what he did that he had hit me, all he said is come one down and we will talk about it…. I was thinking to myself what the fuck is wrong with you!!!!   After all was said and done I kept with my thought and got on the on ramp back to Vermont he yelled and ranted like 2 year old in a candy store. He grabbed the seat belt at one point and rapped it around his neck trying to kill or knock himself out I wasn’t happy with that so I slammed on the breaks and pulled to the break down lane and said cut the fucking shit!!! He said drive fucking drive. I said I’m not driving till you fucking smarten the fuck up and stop your fucking shit! Fucking STOP!   After that Lil burst of bull shit was done I continued to drive. He just got more pissed because I just kept heading back to Vermont a few miles down the roan a SUV was passing he took the steering wheel and jerked it to the Left nearly hitting the SUV that would have killed us and prob them both! I slammed on the breaks yet again right in the middle of the highway and are you fucking insane cut the fucking shit I am not going anywhere. Well with bobby he has this problem with anger where he gets really mad and than blacks out an passes out well thank god that happened because I dont’ know what would have happened if he wasn’t physco an crazy. He hated when I called him that. I called him those two words once and got hit for it he just didn’t like it probably because he wouldn’t be able to face the truth.. Either way there is so much that has happened that sum times I just wish it would just be over and done with.

I called the cops on him three time and covered up for him every time because he threaten to hurt me even more if I told on him!… Bull shit! ITs hard to live your life in fear by the one that you thought was going to treat you right… I should have known because the fucker had a record. He stabbed a kid in the leg and went to jail for a week because he ended up ratting on the guy that actually started it. (RAT) than he popped cops tires at the police station in CT.

I just want people to remember that name Bobby Gene Belliveau! He isn’t sane isn’t healthy isn’t worth your time! I have a restraining order against him and am currently having to go to court for criminal threatening!

http://www.myspace.com/441821136            that’s his myspace

The Cd (Addie Barton)

Today I listened to the cd that I bought my grandmother before she pasted. I couldn’t help but cry. She told me she loved the cd I got her and she listened to it everyday. My grandmother passed not to long ago, and I have yet to fully recover…I have yet to let her go. The cd I got her was playing when she passed.  My mother brought it back from her place not less than a week ago. I told my mother to keep it but she told me to have it because my mom said if she was to listen to it she’d probably cry! 

 

I loved my grandmother! Her name was Addie Barton.  I think of her and start to cry. I can’t help but to think of what it must feel like to have your own parents die and or have them die with you right beside them. My mom right aside my grandmother when she took her last breathes. I can’t even imagine the pain, sorrow, and thoughts that when through my moms head when she had passed. I can’t even imagine losing my parents! It hurts just thinking about it. I tend to not think about myself when it comes to things like that an instead think about how they much feel and they pain that their going through. Many thoughts go through my head but I still can’t imagine how much she has gone through.  

 

We all will remember Addie as our own mother, the one that kept us all together. The one that was there when you needed someone to talk to, who was always interested on what’s going on in your life not matter how crappy it was. She always worried about others before she worried about herself! She was amazing mother and grandmother to all! A friend that you couldn’t dream about and be there for you, that was my grandmother, Addie Barton! I Love you gram, your forever be in my heart an remembered everyday of my life! We all miss you and send lots of love! My best of wishes to you gram and grandpa. We all send lots of love and wishes.

Future, What it Holds. Past, What I had…

Hi and hello, my name is Savannah. I am currently 18 years old I’d like to tell you about my life to help you with yours…How you may ask? By telling you the problems I’ve had, the tough times I’ve been through and what life has given and taken away from me. I have no idea where to start in telling you about my life other than the fact that my life has been all over the place through the rough and even the happy times…

I’ll tell you a  lil’ more about myself, like I said my name is Savannah, I”m currently 18 years old. I am currently attending Thetford Academy and Hartford Area Career & Technology Center(HACTC) , and I also go to CCV for my Introduction to College Studies class, and I am also apart of Future Business Leaders Of America(FBLA). I want to go to college once I graduate High School. The college that most interests me would have to be Colby Sawyer, one reason is that they have what I am looking for and the area of career I want to be in.  At HACTC the votech center I attend a Graphic Design & Illustration Media Arts class which also has photography enrolled into it. I have my future some what set… I want to graduate and take some time off before going to college to do what I’ve always wanted to do, which is…to travel around the world and backpack. This has always been a dream of mine that I hope to make come true….Any who I’m not confused  in much of what I want to do after high school or with my life. I’m pretty set on what I want in life and how I want to live it and I truly don’t let people tell me other wise in how I can live my life or what I can and can’t do. That might seem like a total bitch comment but its not when you know me and my life. I’ve been through to much in my life to have people running it for me plus I’m very much an individual due to how I’ve grown up. I can be very independent and live perfectly fine on my own just because that’s how its always been for me for as long as I can remember…

I guess you can say I haven’t had the best of childhoods when I was growing up. My life isn’t perfect and neither was my childhood. I grew up to quick due to some events/happenings that happened when I was younger. (I don’t know if I’m ready to tell everyone that much detail about my life) but I guess I can try. I was molested when I was around the age of 6 by a girl that was my friend, it was while playing the classical game of “HOUSE.” You’d think an average normal game couldn’t hurt anyone but I beg to differ…  Due to that happening over a course of a year and me not knowing wrong and not having anyone I kept that secret for one to many years until just recently about a year maybe less when I told someone and had to deal with it head on…Any who that isn’t even the beginning of my life and what I’ve been through. When I was the age of either 14 or 15 I was abused and beaten by a stranger multi times. I have no clue who this person was other than the fact yet again I had no one to turn to and help me. How this person came to finding me I have nodda clue other than the fact that I was shopping and they kept following me around until that one bad moment happened, and they began to stalk me more and more until they knew exactly where I lived. One day I was walking down the road an they just happened to be passing by and stopped to “talk” to me. Well, you can guess where I am probably going with this either way I was abused multi times by this one person who I have yet to truly know other than the fact that they were the ones that laid their hands on me with force! You’d think that would be serious enough but it isn’t the end not even close. Then back in March of 2007 I was molested yet again by a very close friend that I thought would never do any thing to harm me… But I was wrong yet I do forgive them for it. You probably are asking how could someone ever forgive someone for hurting them? Well, I hate when people don’t know how to forgive others for things they’ve done that might have hurt one another. Either way it happened and there’s nothing I can do about it now.  Last year 2008 for 9 months I was in an abusive relationship. It was horrible, thinking that the one you loved could hurt you so much and not feel bad for doing it. When I was in my two year relationship I experience the same thing than him and I broke up and he told his now currently girl friend about it and all she had to say was, “she probably deserved it.” I don’t see why someone, him could tell her and have her say such a thing without it crossing her mind that maybe it might happen to her by him? It pissed me off when I heard that because He knew what he did yet didn’t get shit for it! Its Fucked!!!! Either way back in 2008 in my last relationship I was abused, I would have to say it was my worst relationships that I have had! He and I argued everyday for 9 months always giving each other shit and always ending up beating on one another. I called the cops on him twice just to end up covering for him even though I had marks that once was pointed out by the state trooper. I covered for him because I didn’t take anything as a joke from him. He threaten me with my life so I would cover for him. His and I’s relationship didnt’ end well, we just didn’t make it work at all in the end! One thing after another would go wrong he said he had changed yet we ended up in the same place every time. Me having marks on my body him with cuts and marks as well than yelling at him to leave, leaving both of us unhappy, mad, upset, emotional and of course leaving me with no one to talk to, or open up to in the end.

As you can tell I haven’t had the greatest of life and that’s only the stuff that I’ve told you about. That truly isn’t all my life and what has happened! I don’t like talking about my life but I do it at times…I hate it when people say that their life sucks and they have it so hard when I know what I’ve gone through and that I’ve had a rougher time with life than they have. especially when its just someone having a hard day and saying I got one friend that hates me, my teacher gave me extra homework, and then they say my life sucks, I have it so hard and I don’t want to live anymore… That pisses me off.

Life hasn’t been easy for me but I don’t take anything for granite of regret any of it. I am who I am now because of everything I’ve been put through and how I think about life. If it wasn’t for everything that has happened to me I wouldn’t be who I am today, and well I don’t think I’d want to be any other way even if I don’t know what that would be…

There’s so much more that I could tell you about myself and my life but I think that would be a very long post for one person to read…So I will leave it at this!  

Thanks,

              Savannah

Feelin Right Now

Wow I don’t even know where to start with this one…I’m feeling happy at times, but I feel so down at other times. Its very confusing to me. I”m not ashamed or afraid to say I’m depressed but when I do I always ask myself why am I depressed? I have lots of reasons to be, but I don’t know why I let it all bother me at that point…I don’t know! All I do know is its confusing and just pisses me off at times.

~The Life Of Me~

Its been a while since I’ve put anything up on here so I’m just going to type what’s on my mind, the thoughts and or feelings I have or am feeling and I guess just fill you in with what’s happened and has been going on!

Okay first Michael and I broke up after 2 years. We broke up long time ago..Yea long time ago. We tried working it out but it just didn’t work out. We had our reasons for breaking up which in the end we both are happy  now. It’s a very long and complicated story if I was to tell you all of it! 

Second After a few months of being single I meet this guy, named Bobby. We met at Lanes in Games in West Lebanon. And proceeded from there. As well its a very long story on how we came to date..lol is actually  not a long story but either way we ended up dating for lil over 9 months!  It didn’t end the way I wanted it to but things are I guess okay now but between him and I that’s gone forever. 

Third, like I said yesterday in my post i got a job. I’m happy to have a job which is awesome on my part! I am just happy to actually have gotten a job.

I’ll write posts just about the first and second and tell you  more.

SMHVT(Savannah) Check In…

Hey everyone! Its been a a while since I’ve posted anything on this site, so I’m taking time out of my busy day to try and get something up on this site of mine. 

Well where to start? I’m good, I guess. I have a lot of shit going on right now and a lot of good going on too. lol I got a job (finially) that only took me like 3 years actually being honest it has taken me three years to get a job. I was at the point of thinking that there was something seriously wrong with me because I put in over 24 applications and even one to Weststaff where they place you for a job and I didn’t get hired or even a call back. And I even called them and nothing! LOL I know right sucky…Anyways the job is kewl only pays 8 an hour but I guess thats kewl when you’ve always wanted a job and couldn’t get one but what I am I to complain so many people are getting laid off etc. so I”m happy with it for now!  I’ll have to get back to finishing this later have to be off to my CCV classes!

My New Tattoo

Just A Bunch Of Thoughts (Opinionated)

 

Life is hard and unforgettable. You live your life to only die, working as hard as you can to be able to have a steady livable life. But for what we all seem to ask?  Life’s just plain hard. You live day in and day out living the way you want but still controlled by the people, government, and laws that surround you… Do we even have any freedom? Everything stops at a point; free speech, your freedom, what you can and can’t do, the laws and much more. What if I want to live different than most people? I can’t right… Well, I never let anything hold me back from doing what I want to do. I have freedom whether anyone want’s to give me it fully or legally…  I don’t stand back and let people walk all over me, or have some one come into my life and be try to tell me something about myself that I don’t know. How can people just judge someone? Seriously! Life’s just to fucking short and complicated to look at someone and say they are fat, ugly and or say anything that is degrading to the person. I’ve had people tell me I’m always right or that they have a better memory than me… Who are they to judge me and even be able to say something like that? Honestly! Do you even know anything that could even prove that? I doubt it, I highly doubt it!!! I’m a very opinionated person and I’m not afraid to tell you off or fight with you just because you think “you know me”.   There’s so much in life that we all end up hating whether that be a people, actions, or what some say’s. Like for example when someone is drinking everyday or almost everyday and you simply ask them to stop because it scares you. But when they say no you say well than I’ll drink too, thats when they say no you can’t. But why? They get to but you can’t? They are a hypocrite that is trying to control or even the chance that they care for you. But what they don’t understand is that your trying to help them from hurting themselves in the future as well as you care for them deeply.  Its hard watching people hurt themselves or even watching yourself, having no control over what you do or the negative thoughts you have. I won’t lie because it doesn’t bother me to tell people that I’ve honestly have inflicted pain on myself. Why lie about it?  I choose to do it, I have no reason to hide it. But I only tell if someone asks. I’ve always been like, unless you ask I don’t tell… Stupid to go by right, well obviously I think not!  I ponder on thoughts of life, wondering what is so hard about it?…But what I’ve come to is that the only hard thing  about life is change. The change in yourself. The type of change that a loved one or a close friend/family member notices and tells you. Its mentally, emotionally, and physically hard to manage. Its just so hard when someone tells you you’ve change or are changing and that your not the same as you used to be… Its so emotionally confusing knowing that you don’t know why or what’s causing it. Or even that its happening. The harder part is when you do know but you have no clue of why or even who you are at that point. People can keep telling you over and over that your changing but that isn’t going to change anything. They can keep telling you that you used to do this and do that with them but now you don’t. Its hard when someone is always telling you you’ve changed and your not the same person. Because clearly you don’t notice or aren’t able to figure out what’s happening to your own self. Why does it happen? Why without notice? These are all great questions that we ask our selves when we have a not so settle change in one self and everyone can notice it…  Its hard not knowing how you are, or what you want in life. Whether that be the one you love, the friends you have, and even the future you wanted. Trying to live your life or even the day not knowing what’s coming next or who’s going to be the next one to point out to you that your a fucking up, in laming terms.   We live our lives day in and day out but for what and why I always seem to ask myself that… I seem to sit and ponder about the true meaning of life, and why we are granted it. Some take it for granite, others indulge in it, and then there are the pole who just take advantage of it. life is something you are only given once but it last decade’s depending on how you care for it. There are people like me who try to live every moment of their lives to the fullest, trying their hardest to have no dull moments and to enjoy life anyway possible, keeping in mind that you only live once so you might as well live your life to the fullest even if it kills you trying. Taking risks is a big party of life, if you don’t take risks in life then what’s the point? Falling in love is a risk you have to take in life knowing that at any moment you could lose it all and be heart broken for weeks to months to years… Love is a powerful word, that is strongly missed used by many. People should never lie to themselves about their true feelings for or towards someone, giving the other person the impression that they ” love” them but only leading them on…Also to many people abuse the 3 words ” I love you” to often, they tell their closest friends (guy/girls) that they love them but then what meaning does it have when you tell the true person you love? There is so much to life that many don’t get the pleasure to experience because they either choose to not take the offer or they are unable to… Today’s society is over whelming, uncontrollable, and very unpredictable. Right now they truly have no idea what’s happening in the world, they say Global warming is happening, but is it? We can’t even believe our own governments, we hate out president. What’s this world come to?… You have to site and wonder at times what’s there to live for, than you sit and think about a list of things that your living for. A list of things that have deep meaning that if you were to die would be effected for the lose of your life. We all choose to be who we are but we do get help by the people that surround us. Our friends, parents, and siblings and even a complete stranger helps construct who we are and even how we act. Friends can bring you down but also can cheer you up. I’ve always been grateful to have friends, they’ve truly been there for me when I needed them at times. but I seem to be the one there for everyone when they need someone to talk to, need advice, a shoulder to cry on, a simple hug, a place to say, or even a ride. I’ve always been the type to help others and never want anything in return just because I love helping and being there for anyone when needed and wanted. I seem to have a great personality, that everyone can get along with. A lot of people find me very cool, mellow, and just plain weird… I take that as a compliment when people tell me I’m weird because truly that is one thing that I am. Yes I am weird. I never give a crap when people call me names because there just words and I always just say call me what ever you want, but in the end I truly know how I am. I have lots of thoughts, advice and a great imagination. I love life but I won’t life it does suck at times but I’m always able to look through that and know that it will pass and get better sooner or later… Life is something I’ve never take for granite, I’ve been to the point where i wanted to die but then I thought about the true meaning of life to me and what I though and had to live for. At first you think about everyone that wouldn’t give two shits if you died today, but than there are people that you know would be hurt and crushed if you ended your life right there and then. To be honest I wouldn’t be sad or regret dying even if that was tomorrow because i’ve lived my life to the fullest and I”m happy with everything I’ve done so far. I wouldn’t change a thing, plus in life there is no point to have regrets because at one point or another that is exactly what you wanted. There is just one thing I want people to do if I died. I want them to be happy for me because no matter what age I am I want them to know that I lived my life the way I wanted and to the fullest. that I’d always love them and thank them for being apart of my life. even if that was just saying “hi” to me. I thank everyone for being there for me and I want them to be happy instead of thinking I had so many years left to live and make something of my life. Have you ever felt so empty that your soul isn’t even apart of existence that your life has no meaning, nothing to even live for. Life is just a big word, that comes with a lot of responsibility.   

 

WHY WHY WHY

 

Why is it that I’m always the one to blame? Why is it that my life is the one that gets fucked up when ever something goes wrong or if I get told shit? Why is is that I”m the one always hurt by everyone and everything? Why is it that no one has respect anymore? Why is it that everyone is a fucking slut now and days? Why is it that life is so fucked up for me and no one else?

 

Every time something that is going good in my life always seems to have to be fucked up either by myself or by them. Nothing even seem to go as planned and always goes wrong! For once I’d like my life to just make it to a level where I’m happy and not depressed or sad about anything. I don’t know if that means finding someone new or just getting back with the old. who knows? Who cares right… Life is to complicated for me and well sometime I just feel like dying because honestly no one would care. Shit at the moment I’m being blamed for everything and every lil thing that happens in everyone’s else’s life which isn’t fair. Like my father blaming me for everything right now that if the phone bill goes up I have to pay for it, that I”m a fuck up for breaking up with Mike, that I had a good thing going and I fucked up it saying what did he finially get sick of you!  Honestly who say’s that. He’s being so mean toward’s me too now! Like tone of voice everything I notice it..and well its sad! and just like everything else in my life I pretty  much only have my mom right now because she stuck for me against my father!   What ever I guess that’s life but my life is fucked up and probably always will be!!!!!

 

Writing this off the top of my head and putting thoughts and emotions first so might be worse now than what it really is…oh well fuck’um

 

I gUeSs LiFe

 

Yeah so where to start—UMMM——Yeah…So yeah life is going pretty damn good right now.  I’m totally happy with where my life is right now. (Couldn’t be better, well it’s only missing one thing but oh well)–Everyday is pretty good and steady. I mean it’s not like I”m perfect and have a perfect life because I’ll tell yeah right now that would a lie and I’d be trying to be fake. Something I”m not.(Fake) We all are a lil’ fake and whether you think that or not it’s up to you. You may say and think your not but others behind your back are saying otherwise. So just admit that you are a lil’ fake not just because others say so but the fact is you are fake or try to be in some way. 

 

Hi and Hello! Yeah I’m random and spontaneous. I have the greatest personality that you’ll ever find in someone. I can make an emo laugh. I definitely have a lot of fun with life. I try to make the most of it without having to many dull moments.  Most of the time I exceed at that! (lol)

 

My friends and I have the greatest time. I, as well as some of my friends can come up with the most craziest idea’s, but I have to say I come up with the best and the craziest.  One of my friends that I’ve known for years now, me and her definitely have the most fun together because we are so alike and her and I just get along so great. We both have the same interests and we aren’t afraid to do anything and when I say anything I mean ANYTHING! I’m good at bring out the best in people. I can make anyone laugh just because its me. I know silly and a lil’ bit cocky right but its true ask anyone of my friends.

 

So yeah back to life–Life with me does has its ups  and downs but I deal with them and move on eventually. Whether that takes hours, day’s, or months. Life sometimes can be a bitch but that goes for everyone. We all have bad day’s where nothing goes right except for the friends you have to relate to and be with enjoying laughter and cracking jokes together.  

 

Who do you think you would be without friends? Someone scared and afraid of the world? I have to say I’d be nothing without my friends. They are AWESOME  and I love them all. We choose people to be close to for a reason, whether that be because they make you laugh or they listen to you the best when you are having a hard time. Some friends just use you in other ways, which feels right to them but in the end you end up hurt!(bad)  I remember way back in Elementary when I made plans with one of my friends to graduate high school than go to college together and after college move in together so that we could be together forever. I know lame right but when I think back on those times its like wow I had some awesome plans and friends. First time ever going to school, friends have helped me shape who I am, and my personality. 

 

I love life but if I was to die tomorrow or next week I feel as if wouldn’t be sad or mad about it. I feel like I’ve done a lot already and yeah there is more to experience but I’m happy now with what I’ve done and that’s all that would matter. Obviously people would be sad that I had died but I don’t want people to feel bad for me because then its not like there happy,  which makes me feel as if they don’t know that maybe I’m in better place. I want them to know I”m happy with what ever happened to bring on my death and that I’ve lived my life definitely to the fullest and that where ever I’m going I’m going to be happy and make it party.(lol)  So I’ll tell ya right now family, friends, anyone that I’m happy if I was ever to die and to never feel pity,shame, sorrow, and don’t feel bad and think that I haven’t lived my life and that I had 60 years left to live and experience more because that’s not true. 

 

Love has had its ups and downs in my life! Some hard times but as well as some great times. Whether that was with my ex’s or not I”m still happy that I was with them and that we did have times that I can look back on and say wow that was amazing! I’ll always remember the ones I’ve dated and the memories I had with them because I loved them at one point or another. Whether I learned something from the relationship or not I’m still happy even if I’m with or without them now. No need to let one guy you’ve dated ruin your entire life or the next relationship you encounter!

 

Party party party! Everyday for me is like a party because of how I act, talk, and joke around with my friends.  I feel like everyday is a party! That I’m not missing out on life’s adventures and risks. Because I definitely take risks everyday, which I’m happy with because I am a risk taker I do stupid things at times and crazy things on the other times. I love to jump of bridges into the water below whether its legal or not I’m going to do it because its in my blood to have fun and be crazy and just take risks because you do only live once and guess what people I ain’t going to let anything stop me from doing what I want because I want to experience it all, whether that be an adrenaline rush from jumping off a 15 foot bridge or a 20 foot cliff. I love life and I’m taking it to the max!!!

 

 

I’m happy with the people I have met and fouled around (lol). I love you all and hope that all my friends and I will still talk 70 years from now! OH yeah can’t forget party I hope we still party together!!! 

 

Much love 

Peace out

Take it to the MAX

Don’t miss out!

 

Savannah

–The Break Up–

It’s a sad sad lonely day when two people apart even with love still in heart.  Thinking only about there other half. The one they loved. The one they put their soul out for. The one they would have died for. Trying to move on and still be able to think of living, trying to win the battle of there is life after the break up of your one and only!… Trying to make up excuse’s to live. Maybe they will want me back? Maybe they will see how much they truly love and miss me? Why die when maybe they wanted “US” to have a second chance?!?!… Dying isn’t the answer, love is only a question, and living is the way to go… To die and end it all would only hurt your other. Making them blame it all on themselves saying why? what did I ever do? How could I push someone so far to make them want to die?!?!….

(To be continued)  or you can send me thoughts or continue it yourself and I’ll post it..Email me at savannah.howard@gmail.com  give your name and if you would like me to post it on here.

Thanks,

Savannah Howard

SEX POEM

Roses are red
Lemons are sour
Open ur legs and give me an hour

Kissing Is A Habit
Fucking Is A Game
Guys Get All The Pleasure
Girls Get All The Pain

10 Minutes Of Pleasure
9 Months Of Pain
3 Days In The Hospital
A Baby Without A Name
The Baby Is A Bastard
The Mother Is A Whore
This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber Hadn’t
Tore!!

Sex is like math
You subtract the clothes
Add the bed
Divide the legs
And Pray to god
You dont multiply

Roses are red
Grass is green
Open your legs
And I’ll fill you with cream

Hickory dickory dock
This bitch was suckin my cock
The clock struck two
I dumped my goo
And dumped her to the end of the block

Sex is good
Sex is fine
Doggy Style & 69
Just for fun
Or gettin paid
Everyone likes gettin laid

Sex is evil
Sex is a sin
Sins are forgiven
So stick it in!!!

roses are nice
violets are fine.
ill be the six
if you be the nine.

~~~~❤Locket•Of•Love❤~~~~

My boyfriend got me a locket for my birthday! & I Love it❤ –its so cute and it truly has a lot of meaning to me, because never in my life has anyone ever given me a locket for any occasion. So this(his locket) means the most to me, its very special to me! &I love him very much for getting for me just like everything else he’s given me, my ring and my other necklace because those also have lots of meaning to me. ❤I Love you Hun very much forever and always and even if I don’t show it everyday I truly do mean it!❤

60 things a girl wants but wont ask for

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything – ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON’T lie to her
27. DON’T cheat on her!… girls get upset
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT’S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Tell her how much you LOVE her then bend down and kiss her slowly and softly.
46. Rub her back–feels good
47. Give her your coat if she’s cold–thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger–feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON’T poke her hard…but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she’s BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing…talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionately and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneak up on her and hug her from behind–loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don’t ignore her or be nervous around her–everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you’ll be good to go. ;D

That Girl

One day you’re gonna want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect but tried to be perfect for you. The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and love you the way she knows she only could. The girl who sees your flaws but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that sees this and still loves you. The girl that should have, but doesn’t. Even though she deserves it.

❤

I love yoh oh so much Hun an miss ya lots!!!

Happy New Years

Happy New Years everyone. I hope that everyone enjoyed spending time with their family, freinds, and who ever else they spent time with. Well enjoy 2008

Girls Language

WHEN I RUN AWAY FROM YOU
- FOLLOW ME
WHEN I POUT MY LIPS
- KISS ME
WHEN I KICK
- HUG ME TIGHT
WHEN I CALL YOU CRAZY
- IM CRAZY ABOUT YOU
WHEN I AM SILENT
- IM THINKING OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU
WHEN I IGNORE YOU
- I WANT ALL YOUR ATTENTION
WHEN I PULL AWAY
- GRAB ME BY THE WAIST & TELL ME YOU`LL NEVER LET ME GO
WHEN YOU SEE ME AT MY WORST
- TELL ME IM BEAUTIFUL
WHEN I SCREAM AT YOU
- TELL ME YOU LOVE ME
WHEN YOU SEE ME WALKING
- SNEAK UP BEHIND ME, & REST UR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER
IF I DON`T CALL YOU
- IM WAITING BY THE PHONE FOR YOUR CALL
WHEN IM SCARED
- HOLD ME BY THE WAIST
WHEN I LOOK LIKE SOMETHING`S THE MATTER
- KISS ME & TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT

50. Things to make you smile :-D

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. A milkshake of your favorite flavor.
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath with lots of candles.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach.
18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

19 ways to win a girls heart

1. Hugs from behind.
2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other(don’t make her grab yours).
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. DON’T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Be super sweet to her.
10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
11. Comfort her when she cries.
12.Wipe away her tears
13. Love her with all your heart.
14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she’ll scream and say put me down but really she loves it).
15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her).
16. Don’t let your friends talk trash about her, it’ll get back 2 her!
& DONT ever act diff in front of ur friends than u r when its just u and her!!!!
17. Take her for a long walk at night!
18. Always bring a blanket where ever you go outside when its cold to comfort her and hold her close
19. NEVER LIE TO HER!!!!!! because then she will think everything you ever said to her was a lie, even “i love you”

What else is there to say.

Sometimes people do things and say things that no matter how bad they hurt or how bad we feel we can’t take back. People lie and hurt people. People also learn from mistakes. I know I did. I’m sorry! I know I hurt you and that hurts me. I wish I could take it back but I can’t. I loved and still love you and only you. I know that I should have trusted you and because I didn’t I lost the one person who truly trusted me. I’m not sure if I lost you but I know I lost your trust, I’m sorry for that. I realized tonight it’s all my fault and as bas as I hurt you I should have been more trusting. Yeah ! Be proud I’m not making excuse’s.(lol) Well (name) I admit I fucked up. I don’t expect anything to change. Expect the trust for me. I can’t tell you why I did it! I honestly shouldn’t have. I did not have a reason. I don’t know what to say so I wrote this instead and I want us to at least be friends if this ends, But if you don’t I understand. I’m sorry for everything…
1. comparing you to my ex.
2. betraying you
3. no understanding
4. never giving you space
5. always bitching
6. and especially for not giving you the trust or respect you gave me

So if we don’t work out as a couple or friends at least I got the chance to say what I need to let you know. But if you want to talk I’m here. Okay well Sorry!

Always,
Savannah

Thanksgiving

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving spending the time with their family, eating turkey and desserts, and just talking up a storm the entire night.

You know what’s next Merry Christmas.

Wow—-Life*

Life’s going pretty good at the moment, things are starting to brighten back up for me. Hopefully things will go back to the way they used to be back in 06. But who knows? I feel pretty good about everything that’s happening or going on in my life. Life’s normal but has its ways with me, it seems to never have a pattern. Things just happen for no reason. Who knows why? I don’t really care because I needed up happy in the end. Like in the summer or 06 greatest moments in my life and much more to come in result of my summer in 06. Someone knows what I’m talking about and probably say the same as me.

–•My Poetry•-

Well, with all the poetry that I love writing I have made a seperate site for them all to be posted on. Most new material that isn’t posted on this page. So I encourage you to check it out and if you feel like giving me feed back, your own opinions, and or comments feel free to. I don’t mind.

http://www.smhvtpoetry.wordpress.com

Animals–emotions and feelings…

Today I got really pissed off at a teacher who said “animals don’t have emotions or feelings”. That fucken bull shit!!! What in the world would ever make you say that, for god sake’s haven’t you ever had a dog great you at the door? They said that its instinct not emotions or feelings. There is lots of animals that get depressed or upet when there loved one dies. Look at elephants, they are known to have emotions for the herd and cry. Unlike whales and dolphins who have sex just for pleasure-kind of like humans..:-P Anyways its just bull crap beacuse animals have feelings just like us, they hurt, they cry, the feel left out. Animals need more respect and if you think that they don’t have feelings than your just disrespectful to animals. Would you eat Veal or Mutton? That’s baby cow and baby lamb. Think of a inncent baby cow born just a few weeks old killed so that you can have veal tonight.. You disgust me.

If you’d like to send me your opinion on animals and the emotion and feeling that they have or don’t have, email me at  savannah.howard@gmail.com

Love

I feel in love with a guy. Someone I cherish, someone I love. I love them to death and forever I will. The fighting can’t break us the lies only help us. Lust all night is amazing even with the lights. He loves me forever he will, I love him forever I will. Making us one to be apart of none, leave us in silence and end up with another one. I love my babe he’s cute as can be, leaving me never in pain. Kisses and hugs all night I Love him to death even tonight.

Fighting Arguing Fighing Arguing…:’(

For that last month or so my boy friend and I have been fighting. Why you may ask? Because of everything! We both seem to find things that upset each other or make each other mad at one another. Simple things like other people, cell phones, online-chatting, etc. sets us both off maybe me more than him but the only reason I might be that was because of his actions in the first place. He needs to understand that obviously I’m not like ever girl he might know, I’m not like any other girls he’s been with or around. Me myself I’m an individual someone who’s different, you  can’t compare me or predict me. I’m like a white board I get erased, drawn on, and things stuck on to me… Whether you under stand that or not point being is that I have feelings, my own feelings. I have things I’m against that maybe other people aren’t. I get upset over stupid things but that’s because I’m myself a whole different person from the people he might know. You have to learn and watch me to be able to see how I react to curtain things. After a while I maybe he’ll see that I’m a whole different type of human,  I am different, I’m an individual unlike some…

I hope that all our arguing and lying will stop soon before its to late.

School update

August 29th is almost here, so do you know what that means? Yes, it is true summer is almost over and almost time for us all to be heading back to school. It sucks but that’s life. Without school your I honestly think life would suck, the day would be long and boring and your friends would be at school and or you wouldn’t have any friends to make or meet. What’s the fun in that? Either way school is almost here and the summer is almost over, take advantage of the last few weeks while they last.

Life and the mistake that it has become

Motionless in pain, lying on the ground hoping that this is all dream. Nightmare or freedom, who will wake me? I can’t believe your gone, I’ll stay up all night with these walls stained with blood. I’ll stay out all night, get drunk and fucken fight. Until morning I’ll forget about our lives. Shot after shot, bullet after two I’ll forget about you. Death might come but my life has yet to become one. I’ll embrace tomorrow as it comes, take my life as if it was a pill, live and move on, dream and make no mistakes. I’ll forget the soul that once made me whole. The gun that set me free is left buried under the tree. Don’t forget me, but don’t forgive. I have sinned, lied and now committed suicide. I die for what we call life, freedom and shame. To have nothing to worry about the pressure of life, the mistakes of lies, and yet most of all peoples starring eyes…

•-•Life•-•Death•-•And•-•My•-•Desision•-•

Taken once, hurt twice, I thought of you and it felt nice. I cried last night because I feared for being hurt by the nice. Taken, stolen, and stomped on my entire life, You looked at me with your eyes as blue as the ocean, your hair swaying with the breeze. Your voice as calming as the rain on a starry night. It was virtual looking down at my own soul suffering from unwontedness. Fallen on your knees crying for life, just for once that someone will see that maybe there is life. I look down upon myself seeing a dying soul, slowly drifting to death. The black creeping slowly into ever hole to take over your soul, your life, your mind. I’ll make that last decision whether you lose your soul or to become whole once again. I choose life over death, no soul should ever have to be put into a hole six feet under. Heaven is high up hell is low down, life is in the middle where you shall go…

Poems and Poetry

I love to write poems and poetry, even stories. Everything on this site has been made up/written by me. Lots of it I don’t even post on web because some of the writtings have personal means to me as well as tell a story or an event in little words… I hope you do enjoy all the poems and poetry that I write and I hope that maybe it has meaning to you as well.

Lies, Tears, Lust, and Trust

The spirt inside me rises, bringing forth a new day, a new life one that I will care for, one that I will hold onto. He gave me a second chance for a reason I have yet to see…He told me care for this as this is the last time he’ll give me life. I sit and wonder of what I’ve done, seeing and imagine all the lies, tears, lust, and trust that I’ve given. All the trust given has been taken, the lust that has never became something that I have for taken, tears come gracefully but I’m still hurting like a bum, and the lies have done nothing right but have yet to show any shame. I live the life of me and only me not letting the past create my future but to let the future ease my past. I hold onto the second chance he gave, and let everything else go…

Fears and Tears Life and Death seem to be all there is left

Look into a life that has no eyes, the one that fears that has no shame, the one that lied but is still playing the game. Let me fall for I need to learn. Trust and lust must come, as I sit and wonder what I’ve done. Cheating and lying all play a role in something that we withhold. Fears and tears always seem to follow even when I try to hold it back and swallow my sorrow. Trying to live with the pressure of life and what it has to follow, makes not scenes but it seems to be what we follow… Fears and tears, life and death please follow but do not shame on me for that I do not want to sorrow.

Depression

Depression may hurt, depression might kill, depression might be worth it even thought it feels like your going through hell. Depression might scar, depression might win, even thought you fight its still the Meds. that always wins. You may cry, you may smile, you might be in pain, but its depression that makes you so emotionally even though you still have the will to win.

Contacts

AIM:savannahdogwood
Yahoo:savannah.howard
Email: savannah.howard@gmail.com

That’s how you can get ahold of me for any reason(s)…

Love

I love you Hun! :-*

~The Rain~

The rain falls gently to the ground around me, making an indescribable sound when it crashes into the surface of this place we call earth. The umbrella that I hold shields me from the cold rain as it slowly graces down my umbrella. As I walk along I hear the music of the rain as it tinges on the old cans and bottles that have settled into the grasses. I removed the umbrella and let the rain fall onto my checks as it slowly but gracefully slides down my check it leaves a shimmering streak as if I had been crying. The rain gentle but strong finally resides and the white clouds sail on to cry upon another soul.

Make it work out…

I love him to death so I’ll do anything for him to make this work out in the end! I dont’ want to lose him and I fear losing him. He is my love, and I’d give him all the love in the world…I just want everything to be back to normal once again!!!! Please someone help me be what I used to be??? I love him and I don’t want to lose him, so send me some help from anywhere that will make “US” back to what we used to be( to love birds falling in love over and over again every day)…

Camping

I love camping! Nothing beats camping your friends. When I go camping with my friends I’ve never had a bad time becuase hell its with my friends. Theres never a dule moment which is great because don’t want to be bored. Staying up all night talking about just random bull shit and life is so much fun and we always seem to find things to talk about that make us laugh really hard. Camping is just great!!!

Getting Harder

Its been getting even harder between Michael and I. We are just fighting non-stop, which I really hate because it causes us both a lot a pain in the end. Fighting doesn’t solved anything it just puts more conflict into the situation. It just really sucks at this point that we are always fighting I just wished that the fighting could stop?…

~Lost~Feelings~? Add-in

I just wish that I could go back in time! I would changed what ever it was that changed me in the first place and set it strait so that me and my bf aren’t having to go through this crap all the time now… Its so hard for him and he ends up taking it personally every time i do something or say something to him which really hurts me because its not directed at him, shit its not directed toward anyone is anyone it would have to be myself for being the way I am. What’s there that I can do about this? I think and think and I can never seem to come up with anything that is truly making me this way. Its more of my feelings that are being altered here!!!! I don’t know that’s all I can say!!!!!!!

~Lost~Feelings~?

At the moment my life is being turned upside down! Things are happening that are indescribable…. My life is being altered in ways that you can’t even imagine. I’m always wanting to stay home for no reason, I’m always extremely tired even when I do get a great nights sleep, I’m always in some bad mood when around people. It feels as if I’m pushing people away when I’m not. I have no control over what I’m doing and I have no clue what to do about it when it happens. I don’t even know how to describe it, that’s the worst part… What am I suppose to tell people??? Worst of all what ever is happening is hurting my relationship between me and my boy-friend!!! I know it is and I can see that it is. Its so hard to watch what your doing to your own relationship when you have no control over anything that you do. Makes you want to ask your partner, are you willing to help me through this? Am I going to loss you in the end? I get so upset with myself because I’ll sit for hours and try to figure out what is happening with me and all I ever come up with is nothing..blank…????…What else is there for me to try? Yeah at times I’ll have my days where I’m in a semi good mood and I can deal being around people. What hurts the most is that I see where this is bring me and my boy-friend to, I see what its doing but what hurts the most is that I can’t do anything about it…Why??? I’m not sure I just can’t seem to change myself in a day or so even though it seems that I got this way in less than a day or two.

I’m sorry Hun!!!! :’(

Friday, June 8th

Tomorrow is the last day for Thetford Academy. The summer will begin and the fun will start. I hope that all Thetford Academy students have a great summer. I think that I’m actaully going to try to stay in touch with friends this summer, maybe try to hang out with them so that when the new school year starts up in Aug. 29 that it wouldn’t be like as if we hadn’t seen each other in forever… Well, I plan on making this summer one of the greatest!!! I’ll miss people that I hanged with at school but I’ll see them in the fall.

Have a great summer yall!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fellow student at Thetford Academy,

Savannah

Check Your Basic Groove–?

I am thinking of changing Check Your Basic Groove–for my own reasons, but I can’t make up my mind on what to call it after I change it? So if you can come up with a nice Title and catch line for Check Your Basic Groove—Keeping it Unreal then go for it and tell me and maybe I’ll change it to that…

Thank you

§Rain§

I love rain! Why do I love rain? Well, because its fun to play in—Jumping from puddle to puddle getting all muddy and wet it’s so much fun!…If you haven’t tried it I think you should… And if it’s rained for a long time you can slide which is so much fun.

Just think about it your boy-friend or girl-friend taking your hand, then running into the poring rain going from puddle to puddle jumping into every one, getting wet and muddy and obviously getting soaked. But think about it after you both are home you can find ways to take eachother’s clothes off and get dry ~ see rain can be fun

I personally think that rain is romantic. Why I say that? I’m not sure but to me rain is romantic!!!

The Transporter

(2002)—A mercenary(Jason Statham) changes his mind-set after the package he is supposed to deliver turns out to be a gagged woman.

I recommend this movie due to the awsome driving action that goes down!!!

~Rolling Kansas~

Five men take a road trip to find a marijuana forest. (2003)…

~Dress~

I bought a dress the other weekend!!! :-/ I in my entire life have never worn a dress until last Monday when I wore it to school but, I had pants on under it and a sweat shirt over it… It looks really nice but I have yet to wear it with nothing else other than the dress because I don’t feel comfortable enough in it! That same day a friend of mine came up to me and asked if she could borrow it for a concert sometime in June. I thought that it was so funny because I had only had the dress for 1 day and already someone loved it enought to want to wear it to some concert…

Happy Mothers Day

I hope everyone had a great mothers day! Hopefully you got your mother something special and made her feel special… Alway’s tell your mother that you love her even if that means saying in the way you only know how… HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY

Sunny Weather

I’m loving the weather right now! It’s great because its sunny and warm. The weather has been very messed up since last year and now that we are in a new year it’s still messed up and unpredictable. But who cares, as long as if it stays nice out then I don’t care….

Romantic

There is so much that is romantic in life. There are things that people can do on special days that will make the moment even more special and romantic. Like for example, going back to those special places that you and your loved ones went to when you first started dating, going back to where you had your first kiss…Just things like that. I think that its just romantic when someone tries to make special days even more specail….

New Home

Well, yesterday Skippy my dog found someone that wanted him…He’s now found a new place to live and I am left here all alone and lost yet again. I’ve never actually been able to keep a dog for its entire life span…I told myself that Skippy was going to be the first one that I would do that for and well I failed just like at everything else I do…I’m the one to blame in the first place to have to get rid of the dog and now that its happened I’m very sad and I just can’t help but blame myself and think that only if only if….The person that he went with we are going to keep in touch email back and forth and plan days for us to meet so that I can see Skippy again…Which is very great and good news for me because if I wasn’t at least able to see him I think I would be depressed for life, which then would result in me probably lossing everything else around me… Well, I guess I’m just going to have to “try” to stay strong and not cry (bottle it up) Also person I know wont back off me on the subject of Skippy and they are just making me get very upset and very teary which is just starting to piss me off actually…..

My Locket

I wear a heart shaped locket around my neck everyday. This locket I guess means a lot to me even though I bought it! Well, I have alway’s asked for a locket if anyone asked me what I might want for a holiday, b-day gift etc… but no one ever got one not even my mom…Anyways, I got an online gift card for Amazon.com where I ended up buying myself a locket that I can put pictures or what ever I might want to put in it…But I always looked at the lockets when I went into a store that sells them and I don’t know its just I had to buy one myself to finely have one…I guess that’s kind of “sad”? Well, I have one now and I am planning on buying another one pretty soon…

Wonderful Day

Another Wonderful Day!!! Flowers are popping up from the ground and going to bud soon. The sun is out and nice and hot* People are out cleaning their yards and just having fun on this beautiful day!!! Don’t you just love Spring/Summer? I know I do for sure Hoping for more sun instead of rain this summer….

Skippy needs a home

Looking to find a home for my 5 year old beagle named Skippy. He is very loving and loves to ride on four-wheelers and tractors. Would make a great companion for someone that is retired or a loving family. He loves to go for walks and is very low maintenance. Is great with other dogs but is afraid of cats. He is an outdoor and indoor dog. Please e-mail me if interested at savannah.howard@gmail.com Will send more pictures if requested. You have to live VT and or NH but more of looking for someone near or close to Thetford… Thank you

*Spring*

I think Spring is here and to stay! (I hope), but with my luck it’s going to snow or something… Well lets just keep our hopes up and say that Spring is here to stay and then the summer. I can’t wait until the summer!!! Swimming and just the fun that is going to go down. Today was such a beautiful day with its 60 degree weather and the sun and clean blue skys…OMG! Well, hope everyone enjoyed the great weather that we got today!…

Snow Storm VS Hurricane

Well, the Twin States which I live in one of them got hit really hard with snow in some parts that were in higher altitude. Other parts got hit with high winds at 53mph. We were suppose to get a Northeastern when we got hurricane winds and some snow in other parts. I’m not saying we didn’t but parts of Vermont as well as New Hampshire where hit with more wind and rain then snow! Lyme, Piermont, Rutland, and Fairlee were all hit with the wind and not snow. The tress were pushed to their limits when the the Northeastern hit. Parts of Lyme right in front of people’s yards there is more than 20-50 trees ripped from the ground and or broke up 10ft up from the ground. Power was out until around 8:00pm for Thetford and still is out for other parts of VT and NH. Piermont got there power back early Wednesday morning. Residence of Lyme and other surrounding towns are having to rend hotel an motel rooms because they are without power and adequate water supplies. Being that it’s April and shall we say “Spring”, this just might go and show you how Global Warming is effecting the U.S. as well as the world. Look at all the weather climate changes as well as weather partterns that have significantly changed. Fruits having to be put back into a deep state of freeze because of the weather that was not expected in April and or in that state. Just goes to show you that we need to do something about this and as soon as possible before we end up with a major issue that can not be resolved…

The Poems

All the poems that you see on “Check Your Basic Groove” are written by me. They are written from the thoughs and feelings that I go through and have gone through. They all have meaning to me and well probably just for reading for you, unless they hit some where in your life?

Being yourself

See I am a person who really doesn’t give two shits what the fuck someone might think about me. Like I’ll say and do what ever I want unless it affends them then I know to respect that and not cross that line. There is just to much drama in the world today, its just fucking stupid. I mean people need to just be them selves for once and not try to copy or be someone else. Stop trying to be someone else that your not. If everyone wasn’t trying to be and or act like someone else then they would probably like them selves and people would like them more. There is so many people trying to act gangsta which yes is funny to see but its just not really necessary. Well, I guess who really gives a fuck right but I guess that’s pary to individuality?…

*Pirates*

Pirates and their pirate booty… Pirates rule…What you think about them? I know people that love pirates and that’s what they base most of there life off like as in themes and crap. I know weird right, but who cares because at least their trying to be an individual and not trying to look and act like everyone else. Individuality is the way to go, don’t be like every other schmo. Be different and fucking forget what everone else thinks…

*Vacation* :-)

Yes! Vacation…Thank god but its supose to be spring break not winter break… :-/ Well the snow isn’t goin to ruin my vacation now doubt!!! My vacation is going to be great! Well better be or I’ll recruit someone to make it great…tehe

*Howie*

Howie Day is like Wednesday Hump day…LOL Not! Howie Day is an artist that plays songs like: Secret,Help, Morning After, Collide, and many other songs but you get the idea…Also there is a guy in my school named Howie as well. If you have heard of Howie Day then you know what I am talking about but if you haven’t then your probably fucking lost…

Today

Today was a great day. Went shopping down in Lebanon for a few hours. Well, now that I can drive an all things are so much more easier today example shopping and not having to go with my mom(Not saying a bad thing) but you know… But also sucks at the same time because I have had a mirgrain all day today which is really starting to hurt my head at this point…

License

I passed my driving test today! Now I can drive by myself. I got my license, how sweet is that? I’m happy now because now I can do things without being carted around by my parents…

*Easter*

I hope everyone is having/had a great Easter with their family and loved ones!!!

*General Life*

My life hasn’t been all that great or even good at times. There is just so many things that I wished I could change but I know if I changed so many things about my life that I wouldn’t have ended up with a very great guy that I have now, so you know kind of a hard for me choose which one I would want to do? Right now I’m just plain sick which started a a month or two ago and I am still not well yet! I hope that I will get better soon so that I can move on and become a little more active during the day. I know why I got sick in the first place but that isn’t all that important. I usually get sick like this at least once a year. I get my one cold at least a year, one realy bad cold a yr. which sucks but better than being sick every month or two?

Weather

The weather was all great until last night around midnight or so, then it started to snow and it hasn’t stopped since then. Its only getting worse its funny because its April and we are getting snow and all this crappy weather. :-/

*Myspace*

How many people really like myspace? I truly don’t like myspace but I have one stupid I know…Feel free to check it out don’t see why not right? It say pretty much the same stuff as I did on this website.

http://www.myspace.com/smhvt

Still sick!

This really is starting to piss me off/get very old, I’m still sick with that I had a week ago or so and now I have a runny nose and cough it sucks ass big time! Well, hope it goes away soon so I can get on with my life…

Peace&Virginity

Fighting for Peace is like Fucking for Virginity

Skippy

Your all probably wondering who or what Skippy is? Well, Skippy is my beagle who I love to DEATH! But I go bad news tonight saying that I have to get rid of him for various reasons… Now I can’t stop crying and I am very upset over this. Well, there is alot behind this dog that many people don’t know about because it wouldn’t have any meaning to them of any sort. Well, Skippy has been there for me for everything. I trust him so I can tell him absilutely anything unlike most of the people I know. I love him that I just can’t get rid of him. I just won’t let that happen no matter what!!! I have gone through way to many times of having to get rid of a dog and I even told myself that I was not going to get rid of this one dog named Skippy!!!!!

What does your name mean?

S: People think you are so sexy
A: You have trouble trusting people
V: You are not judgemental
A: You have trouble trusting people
N: You’r great in bed
N: You’r great in bed
A: You have trouble trusting people
H: You have a very good personality and good looks

A: You have trouble trusting people
B: You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people
C: youre wild and crazy
D: You are popular with all types of people
E: A Hottie
F: People totally adore you
G: You are very friendly and understanding
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I: You Hate Liers
J: Everyone loves you
K: You like to try new things
L: You always make other people smile when you smile
M: Success comes easily to you
N: You’r great in bed
O: You love foreplay
P: You are very friendly and understanding
Q: You are a hypocrite
R: You are beautiful, and sexy
S: People think you are so sexy
T: You are one of the best in bed
U: You are really chill
V: You are not judgemental
W: You are very broad minded
X: You never let people tell you what to do
Y: you make every experience great
Z: You’re Super cool

My love

My love for you will never end. I cry just thinking about losing you and when the time comes when you die I know I’ll be all alone with no one to hold and no one to tell me that they love me. I cried today before I fell asleep thinking that this could be the day that I lose you, I cried when I woke up and saw you in the other room. I observe the motions and expressions that you make that are sometimes cute and other times confusing. I love looking at you from a distance as it leaves me hopeing that you’ll glimpse over and see me staring at you. I love everything about you and I can’t wait for our love to move further and become stronger as the years go by. I don’t know where I would be with out you or if we had never met. I can’t live without you and I can’t be without you. I would die if I wasn’t with you, my life would be hopeless and deathly gray. I love you so much and I will always love you until the end. My love of you will last until my heart stops beating. I just hope that my heart will never stop beating because I always want to love you. I love you so much HUN!

Protest

Tuesday we had a protest at our school for peace and to stop the war. But if you think about it protesting isn’t the way to make peace and stop the war, what we should be doing is sending them stuff that will help bring them home and help them out over where they are fighting. If you think about it? But yeah the Protest was at Thetford Academy we even had people from the press and I think the news, so yeah that’s pretty kewl and you even get detentions if you go out and join 7-8th grade can only get 4 detentions but 9-12 can get 9 detentions and most of the people went the entire day so sucks for them! I didn’t join due to the fact that I have never gotten a detention and I don’t plan on getting one at all my entire 3 years left at Thetford Academy…

*Condom*

1. Cover your stump before you hump.
2. Before you attack her, wrap your wacker.
3. Don’t be silly … protect your willy.
4. Before you blast her, guard your bushmaster.
5. Don’t be a loner … cover your boner.
6. When in doubt, shroud your sprout.
7. You can’t go wrong if you shield your dong.
8. If yor’re not going to sack it, go home and whack it.
9. If you think she’s spunky, cover your monkey.
10. Before you bag her, sheath your dagger.
11. It’ll be sweeter if you wrap your peter.
12. If you slip between thighs, be sure to condomize.
13. To save embarrassment later, cover your ‘gator.
14. She won’t be sick if you wrap your dick.
15. If you go into heat, package your meat.
16. While undressing Venus, dress that penis.
17. When you take off her pants and blouse, suit-up that trouser mouse.
18. Never deck her with an unwrapped pecker.
19. Especially in December, gift wrap your member.
20. Befo’ da van start rockin’, be sho’ yo’ cock got a stockin’.
21. Don’t be a fool, vulcanize your tool.
22. The right selection? Sack that erection.
23. Wrap it in foil before checking her oil.
24. A crank with armor will never harm her.
25. Don’t be in a jiffy … cover your stiffy.
26. No glove, No love

Stand Klan

Forget me
Forget you
Fuck this
Fuck you
Why hate me
When I hate you
Get up and take a stand
Get up and fight for this to be band

Hate me
Hate you
Hate this
Hate that
Lets stand for what’s right
Lets stand right here where it is right

Lets help her
Lets help him
Lets get this right
And make a stand

Stand up
Stand right now
Stop it as soon as possible
Stop this fighting

Get it right
And stand for
What you think is right

Lets stand
And make our own Klan
Klan to ban the things around us
That cause immense pain

Our Klan
The one and famous stand

Nasty Girl(ME)

There is only five numbers in “The Nasty Girl” that are not me or that I really don’t care about. I would rather not say which ones and keep you thinking/guess on which ones that might be? If you think you know what the five mystery numbers are then feel free to tell me and see if you are right… Maybe a month from now or so I’ll post which five numbers they are???

Nasty Girl

The Nasty Girl post is not completly referring to me, so please don’t think that all of that comes back to me because is doesn’t…

The Nasty Girl

1. I LOVE PARTY PLEASURES, ULTRAFREAKY AND NASTY BOYS.
2. I WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN AN ORGY FREAK PARTY.
3. I WANT MY HANDS AND LEGS TIED TO A BED. I WANT TO BE RAVISHINGLY YET SENSUALLY VIOLATED.
4. I WANT SOME WHIPPED CREAM POURED ALL OVER MY BODY, THEN SLOWLY LICKED OFF, WHILE MAKING LOVE.
5. I LOVE MASTURBATING (FREAKING WITH MYSELF) IN FRONT OF MY LOVER.
6. I LOVE TO BE FUCKED HARD WITH STRONG PUMPING, DEEP GRINDING AND FAST STROKING.
7. I LOVE WEARING SEDUCTIVE, NASTY-GIRL OUTFITS.
8. I LOVE HAVING MY PUSSY EATEN, SUCKED, LICKED, NIBBLED, RUBBED,
TICKLED, PULLED ON, BLOWN IN, MASSAGED, BITTEN, AND SHAVED.
9. I LOVE MAKING LOVE IN STRANGE, UNEXPECTED AND DIFFERENT PLACES.
10. I LOVE MAKING LOVE WITH COLORED LIGHTS ON, LISTENING TO MUSIC
11. I LOVE ORAL SEX.
12. I LIKE BEING FUCKED IN MY ASS.
13. I LIKE SOFT, SADISTIC PAIN WHILE MAKING LOVE…TILL IT HURTS SO
GOOD.
14. I LOVE TAKING LONG LUSTER-SILK, PERFUMED MILK BATHS.
15. I LOVE TAKING NUDE PHOTOS, SNAPSHOTS, POLAROIDS.
16. I LOVE LONG, INTENSE FOREPLAY.
17. I LOVE BEING FINGER-FUCKED WITH AT LEAST TWO OR THREE FINGERS DIGGING DEEP AND TWIRLING AROUND INSIDE MY SUGAR WALLS.
18. I LIKE CUM SKEETED ALL OVER MY TITTIES AND THIGHS.
19. I LIKE NASTY, DIRTY TALK WHILE MAKING LOVE.
20. I LOVE SEX TOYS AND GAMES: SPANISH FLIES, FRENCH TICKLERS,
CREAMS, LOTIONS, ICE CUBES, GADGETS, VIBRATORS, DILDOS, ETC.
21. I HAVE A FREAKISH FETISH FOR A MAN’S SWEAT, UNDERARM PITS AND
THIGHS.
22. I LOVE TO BALL, MAKE LOVE, HAVE SEX, GET OFF, MASTURBATE, FREAK AND FUCK!

Sick

I hate being sick. I have been sick since Tuesday March 13. Yesterdsay and today I have gone home sick from school. GOD! I just hate this… Being sick doesn’t really stop me but when you feel like as if you are going to throw up every fucking minute that’s when you get stopped.

How A Pussy Was Made

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Seven Wise Men made up their minds
to build then a Pussy of their own Design.

The First was a Carpenter, full of wit,
with a Hammer and Chisel, He made the Slit.

The Second, a Blacksmith, black as coal,
with an Anvil and Sledge, He made the Hole.

The Third, a Rich Tailor, tall and thin,
with a peice of Red Ribbon, He lined it within.

The Fourth, a Furrier, big and stout,
with the Skin of a Bear, He lined it without.

The Fifth, a Fisherman, old and bent,
with a Rotten Herring, He gave it a Scent.

The Sixth, a Preacher, with a B.A. degree,
Patted it, and Felt it, and said it would Pee.

The Seventh, a Rabbi, a Mean Little Runt,
Blessed it, and F*cked it, and called it a C*nt.

*Special Recipe*

Banana Loaf
———–

2 laughing eyes
2 bowing arms
2 well-shaped legs
2 firm milk containers
1 fur-lined mixing bowl
1 banana

Look into laughing eyes, spread well-shaped legs and slowly squeeze and
massage milk containers gently until mixing bowl is well greased. Check
frequently with middle finger. Add banana and gently work in and out until
creamed. Cover with nuts and garnish with a sigh of relief. Bread is
done when banana is soft. Be sure to wash mixing utensils and do not lick
the bowl.

WARNING: If bread rises, LEAVE TOWN !!!!!!!!

:-)

Don’t let the past create the future, let the future erase the past.

Happy

I am so happy now! I am just happier than what I was an hour or so ago all thanks to my love He’s the best!!! I love him so much! I just want to mmmm

Nine Inch Nails

Nine Inch Nails is a pretty awsome band. They have a great selection of music from head banging to something a little more brought down. I went and download a shit load of songs by Nine Inch Nails. Two songs that I seem to like more than others is “All the Love in the World” and “Every Day Is Exactly the Same”. “Closer” that song by the way is a great song! I just like to play some of there songs and just head bang to it just to blow off steam or something, you should try it?!?!

Not Right

The reaction of the night
as I lost my sight
I see that there is nothing that can be right
You said you wouldn’t do anything that’s not right
But look now at what you have done
And tell me that wasn’t right?

I see the marks you left
Behind on my life
As everyone else just walks over me
And takes my life
They control a life
That has never been right
From start to finish
I see that nothing might not go right

Why do it when you know its not right?

Hurt and deceived many times
I can’t sit here and let it die
I have to stand up for myself
And set it right

I wish I could go on
And I know I can because
Of the one that is right

He makes life great
Even when I hate it
Makes me laugh when I hate it
I’ve cried over the nights
Fearing being alone without the lights
I can’t see myself alone fearing for my life
He protects and holds me and makes everything right

My Fault-follow up

I wish I hadn’t made a phone call the other day and I am never going to forgive myself for that because now I have to live with the thought if I hadn’t made the phone call… I fucking hate cell phones I wouldn’t never been able to if there wasn’t such a thing called cell phones. I am just fucking stupid and I just didn’t want to take someones shit and listen to them bitch at me all day long and then some… If I just had stuck with what I had already planned everything would have been fine but no I am the fucked up stupid one that just called to change the plans….I am fucking stupid and I am never going to forgive myself…I am kicking myself and beating myself up for this for a very long time…

My Fault

Why is it that everything is my fault and that everything seems to happen to me? I am just kicking myself in the ass for everything that has ever happened to me in my 16 years. Well, I’ve always been blamed for everything and I’ve always blamed myself but its just like why me, why me??? Everything happens for a reason whether you brought it on or it is your fault…I don’t know maybe I am just fucking stupid. I am not sure what to do anymore… I feel like as if I want to curl up under the blankets and never come out becuase then I know nothing can ever happen and or nothing can be my fault. Life’s has let me down many many times already and I’m sick of it… I just want to live a life that is worth living. I have the one thing in life that keeps me going and that is my boy friend who is there for me and is everything to me. I just once want one year where nothing goes wrong, nothing that I am being blamed for, no fighting, no arguments, nothing that hurts me… I just want that just once and that is all I am asking for nothing more nothing less.

*Sleep*

The new time and everything is killing me! I am always tired now and it sucks because I can’t do shit when I am tired Well, to an extent that is… I just hope I get used to it soon so that I can stop falling asleep or stop being overly tired everyday at school and after. I don’t think it is respectful to just fall asleep every time I go to my boy friends house. That’s my opinion. I would rather be awake and starring at him then sleeping but then I can dream about him so its a win win situation but I would rather see the real thing then imagine it…

I’m not

Even with all those answered on that sex survey I have only slept with one person in my entire life and that is my current boy-friend, so I am not a whore or slut in anyway just letting anyone who looks at this site know that.

Ultimate Sex Survey

Those are my answers for the sex survey

Do you like it rough or sensual? Both…I’m just that kinky

Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both? Opposite sex all the way

How often do you like to have sex? All the time

Is sex a top priority for you? Not top priority but pretty damn close

Do you have sex face to face with your partner? Yes

How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger? Never

How do you feel about one night stands? I don’t do them but if other people want to its kewl

How many one night stands have you had? Zero

What’s your favorite position? Doggy, Ride, Normal, and Legs over the shoulders

Where’s your favorite place to have sex? Anywhere and everywhere

Do you prefer to make love or f*uck? Both (depends on the mood)

Have you ever watched porn while having sex? No

How long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed? For as long as it takes

Do you get off first or do they? Both no one is left out when I am around

Do you like kissing during sex? Yes all over

Do you moan? If so, are you loud or quite? Yes I do OMG Yes!!

Do you prefer your partner to be loud or quite? Loud… its such a turn on and it’s hot!

Does size matter (for girlz– dicks/for guyz– boobs)? No doesn’t matter

How old were you when you lost your virginity? Secret

How many sexual partners have you have in the last month? One

What does your favorite fore-play include? Kissing, touching (all over), kissing all the way down to his * cough cough*

Do you ever play with yourself during the act? No

Do you prefer to sleep with randoms or one person? One Person

Have you ever done anal? If so, did you like it? Yes I have. I very much liked it

When and where was your wildest sex ever? A my place, up in the woods on a picnic table

What’s your ultimate sexual fantasy? Tehe now that’s a secret

Have you ever done porn? Nope

Have you ever have sex for money? No!

Have you ever bribed someone to sleep with you? No

Is the sex still good when your cheating? I wouldn’t know haven’t cheated.

During sex… what are you thinking about? Him going in and out of my pussy with his big cock going all the way into me.

Do you prefer the top or the bottom at first? Works both ways for me

How many positions do you like to do during one episode? We usually try three

Do you ever worry about how your pleasing your partner? Never… I just that good

Could you live without sex? No! (addicted)

How often do you find sex boring? OMG Never!!!

How long does a typical sexual episode last for you? Hour or two (oh yeah)

Do you like to perform oral sex? Yes makes mt guy feel great.

Do you like to recieve oral sex? OMG yes!

Have you ever taped yourself in the act? No… not me

Have you ever had a 3-some? 4-some? 5-some? No

Have you ever had interracial sex? No

Have you ever been caught in the act? If so, by whom? Never have

Have you ever had sex while at work? Kind of

Have you ever had sex while at school? Nope

What is something that you would never consider doing? I’ll try anything at least once

Have you ever had sex on drugs? No

Would you ever have sex in public? Yes ( Store parking lot on the hood of the car… Lets give them a show)

What’s your biggest turn on? Everything and anything

Do you spit or swallow? Swallow

How many times have you gotten off in one night? Well in one sitting I have orgasimed 20 times.

Would you let other people watch you have sex live? I would have to talk to my partner

Have you have ever sex in front of your best friend? No

Have you ever had sex with your best friend’s b/f or g/f? no

Do you ever have sex in the shower? No but I want to sounds like FUN!

What’s the weirdest place you’ve ever done it? Never have done it in a weird place

What was the biggest age difference with a partner? Five years

Do you feel your up to par in bed? Yes

Are you still gonna have sex when your 70? Yes my age isn’t going to stop me when I am 90

What was your most embarrassing sexual moments? Never had one

How old is “too young” to have sex your in opinion? I say that 14 and younger is to young

Do you like to be completely naked or half-assed? Naked all the way (Lets go streaking)

Have you ever done it at your grandparent’s? No

Have you ever done it on a boat/yacht? No

What’s the most public place that you can think of that you’ve had sex at? No public places Yet

Do you like having sex in cars? If so, driver seat, passenger, or back? Never have

Do you were protection as often as you should? Yes always!

Has any of your one night stands resulted in a child that you know of? No

If your over 18, have you ever had sex with someone under 18? I’m not over 18

Do you prefer to sleep with someone older or younger than you? Older

What’s the perfect size? (for girlz– inches in dicks/for guyz– cup size)? 7” and up

Have you ever done bondage sex (chains,whips,etc.)? If not, would you? Yes I have

Have you ever slept with someone out of pity? No

Can you remember who gave you the best sex of your life? Oh yes I can

If you could sleep with ANYONE, who would it be? Same person as I am now

*Snow*

Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last.

Research

If the effort that went in research on the female bosom had gone into our space program, we would now be running hot-dog stands on the moon.

Tehe :-P

What matters is not the length of the wand, but the magic in the stick.

Darkness

As the wind blows I see
The lights dim and fade
I become more afraid
I see the darkness over come the light
Like shadow in the misty night
Forsaken and forgot
My heart is twisted into a knot

The darkness crawling into every crevice of the night
I can’t see the light
I more afraid as I see the shadows of the night
Crawl from under what I am going to call this incredible night
I am amazed to see the night

Then a beam of light
Comes can comforts my fright
I see the darkness slowly residing back into the night
As the mist clears
I can hear settle sounds of a silent night

The light not to bright
Has comforted me and my fright
I fall asleep to this light
On one of my most incredible nights

“Blonde”

I got called me a fucking “blonde”!!! Oh did that upset/piss me off? Oh yeah it did!!! First off I have never been called a “blonde”. It’s not my fault that I get tongue tied, and words scrambled when I am around him. I guess I just am relaxing to much around him and that he makes me have loss of words! Shit that’s not my fault and I shouldn’t be called a “blonde” just because of that… If I really wanted I could have intelligent conversations with him and maybe talk about the “structure of genetics” and how they are inherited, and the meanings of x+y=z x+x=y and how the genetics are passed down and what corresponds to the parents of the living organism or creature. I mean hell I did a science fair on that and got an A+ so don’t even go calling me a “blonde”. I am a brunette not a dizy blonde by the way!

Contacting Me

If you have any reason that you might want to contact me feel free to email me at savannah.howard@gmail.com

Me

I am a 16 year old female who lives Vermont. I am told that I am attractive and beautiful and even sexy. I see my self as well mannered, down to earth, a great person to be around or hang out with. I also love to have good time. I have a cat and a dog. Names Mugy aka. my cat Skippy aka. my dog. They both are like my children and are treated more than family. I love them to death. I can’t live without animals!(not sure why) I want to be someone that makes it in life and not have to worry day-to-day about money. I want to have a job that is more than average. I don’t want to work at stores or restuants… I have been thinking of become a lawyer or a doctor or something to do with animals. I am not sure yet…. My life is not average at all. My life has been fucked up many times but know that I have met this one guy who is now my bf I have become a new person and I am so much more happy. One thing I did the other night which I am very sorry for was that I snaped at him when we went to tell me something and that by the time I relized what I had done it was to late my bf was mad or upset with me..But it is all better now I love my Hun, he is the only person that I have ever felt safe with or around. When he tolds me in his arms or I am around him I can actually relax and let lose because I know that he is there for me and that I feel safe. I have told him once that I felt safe around him but held me tighter I felt so loved.

Label

Label me what ever you want because in the end I know who I truly am!!!

Pussy

I love my pussy. It’s fluffy, it’s fat, it loves to cuddle. His name is Mugy and he is my cat…tehe got ya!

My Mind and Brain

I have a very different way of thinking when it comes to actions or facial expression that someone makes. I think different as in my mind thinks something very harsh that will upset me in the end. That’s why when I ask I like to know because then I don’t have to get myself all worked up and upset. Plain and simple…

Infront Of Me *VS* In The Other Room

I get all upset when “someone” does something infront of me and tries to play it off like there looking at nothing *VS* doing it in the other room where I don’t care because I don’t know what you are doing so I have no reason to get upset over it! Or if you say something like “I didn’t even know I had that”, and then I ask what’s that? and you don’t tell me its like hello are you just trying to make me upset?

My Hun!

I love my hunny! He’s so cute and sexy…. Love ya Hun :-*

Simple Rules

kiss before play
look before touch
observe and overindulged
then we an fuck

I love M

I love M. He makes me happpy but also sad.
I love M. He makes me feel safe when in his arms
I love M. He brings joy to my life day-to-day
I love M. He is the one that brightens my day
I love M. He is my true and only love
I love M. He doesn’t hurt me but comforts me
I love M and everything about him! He’s the greatest and most loving person that I have ever meet/dated.(The only guy ever dated)
He’s my first boy friend for holidays(thats the best)
He’s my first!
He’s there for me when needed.
Plain and simple to the point explanation:

M makes me happy . M makes me sad(at times) :’( . M makes me feel great inside . M makes me feel loved :-* . I love M

For M-

Dear M,
I love you so much. Your bring light to my day when it gets dark. You make me feel safe when you hold me in your arms. You know what to do or say when I am sad. You do things that make me laugh which I love. You’ve done things that no one has ever done! You are the most wonderful greatest when it comes to making love;-)! You always are there for me when needed, and you have helped me through a LOT! I thank you for doing anything and everything that you have ever done for me!!!!!! I love so much and I would do anything for you(ANYTHING) If I was rich I would keep you away from the world and make you all mine and support you for the rest of your lives. You are so wonderful to have and to hold. I love you M :-*

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Love

There is one person in my life that I met last summer. He’s the greatest guy every! I love him to pieces. He makes me happy when I am sad. Makes me laugh all the time. Brings Joy to my life when ever it gets dull. His name will say left out. I love him more than anyone in the world and there is no amount in the world that would make me give him up! I love him so much and always will love him!!!

Why?

Why is that whenever you feel like as if you have the greatest thing in your life, that something always has to go wrong and either ruin it or make it complicated for you?